Last Christmas I gave you my heart ...

Yup, Christmas is coming. Today I heard Last Christmas by Wham for the first time this year on radio. You know what that means: Christmas is around.
I remember the trip with Markus to New York for Christmas shopping. It was the trip where I also met a nice guy. Markus picked me up at home in the night. If I remember correctly it was 3.30am. I sat in his car, he turned on the radio and the next song coming up was Last Christmas. We both thought that it perfectly fits to our trip. We heard that song hundred times during that trip. Not on purpose, but it was on everywhere. So this song became the theme song for this trip.

Jenny, thanks for an legendary trip to the Big Apple. I hope we'll have many more. Your bosom friend Rita

A couple days ago while I was looking for a magic book that I've bought during that trip I found a collage that Markus made for me with pictures of the trip. "Rita and Jenny on tour". Rita and Jenny were the names we referred to each other. If he was a girl his parents would have named him Rita, and my name would be Jennifer if I were a girl.

Ok, back to the collage. He wrote some very nice things on it. I've translated some of them and put them in those gray boxes and scatter them all over this post.

You are and you will always be my soul mate. Whatever may happen, I hope this will never change.

Sadly, we had some issues right after the trip. I haven't seen him since April. But I can't forget the absolutely great times we spent together. He was "my big sister". I would be so happy if we were still so close like in that time. *sigh*

I would go on another trip with you anytime. I'll never have a better friend than you.

Actually I was thinking that I'm over this drama. I really was sure this is over, but when I found that collage it really hurt very much. Again. Last time we exchanged some short instant messages I said that I'm sad we're not good buddies anymore. He said that we still are, but each of us is busy and we kind of adjusted our lives and moved on.

Stick to your principles. I'm not the only one who loves you the way you are.

Jesus, it's amazing and frightening what feelings a little song can bring up on a Monday evening...